When it comes to describing myself, I've always said that I'm the chihuahua that thinks he's a rottweiler. What I mean is I act tougher than I really am, and will attempt to scare people away with my anger or bitchiness. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But I always find myself wondering why it is I do that.
My close friends know my true vulnerability. No matter how tough I act, things get to me and hurt me very easily. A lot of the time, people don't even know I feel slighted, either because I'm overreacting and so don't tell them, or I'm not overreacting but I hide my feelings regardless. The truth is, I've been hurt a lot in the past by people I love, and it's still happening today.
So I guess I act bigger than I am so that I can hurt others before they hurt me. It's textbook bullying insecurity. The fact that I am a cliche makes me gag. Awesome.
I know it's something I need to work on. Being that I'm always helping people or giving them advice, I feel like I'm not allowed to have flaws. That I need to work on them to be perfect.
It gets really tiring sometimes.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Welcome to My World
So... what's a college drama solver? Haha. It's me, and countless other friends across the country who know they care too much, and can't do anything to stop it. So, instead of worrying about their own problems, or letting things happen on their own, they keep on keeping on and set out to save the world.
Maybe that sounds a bit too lofty, but I'm not trying to sound arrogant. I'm not saying I can save the world or that I am the only advice guru you should talk to, I'm just saying that I try. And that I want to help.
This blog is going to be my venting place. Trust me, a drama solver feels the pressure every now and again. I need a place to voice my rants.
This blog is going to be my commentary. On today's issues for college-aged kids, on my friends, on my life, and on countless other things I feel the need to comment on.
And, hopefully, this blog will be an advice forum. I'd love for people to have faith in my advice, and for them to come to me, an unbiased third party, with their questions and, yes, drama. So, if you feel so inclined, drop me a line at robert.garilli@gmail.com
I'll be waiting.
Solving something soon,
Collegedramasolver
Maybe that sounds a bit too lofty, but I'm not trying to sound arrogant. I'm not saying I can save the world or that I am the only advice guru you should talk to, I'm just saying that I try. And that I want to help.
This blog is going to be my venting place. Trust me, a drama solver feels the pressure every now and again. I need a place to voice my rants.
This blog is going to be my commentary. On today's issues for college-aged kids, on my friends, on my life, and on countless other things I feel the need to comment on.
And, hopefully, this blog will be an advice forum. I'd love for people to have faith in my advice, and for them to come to me, an unbiased third party, with their questions and, yes, drama. So, if you feel so inclined, drop me a line at robert.garilli@gmail.com
I'll be waiting.
Solving something soon,
Collegedramasolver
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